Wednesday, June 20, 2007

3w5d

So we did it again. M and I are expecting a leap day baby! We clearly have no problem getting to the "being pregnant" stage. Our problems lie in the "taking a living and healthy baby home" stage. We lost our son G a year ago this past weekend (happy father's day!) at 36w4d because of a problem with his umbilical cord. We had an early miscarriage before that. It's clear to us that there is no safe point in pregnancy.

Despite being gripped by intense fear, I'm stupidly excited. I keep going back and forth between feeling like this time it will be different and waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm too afraid to even say it outloud.

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